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Shameless Plug

10 minutes to write about anything, guess daily prompt’s prompt bucket is empty this month.

Last time it gave me a chance to write about Grandpa Bill which was a blessing for me and my family.

This time…….(starts stop watch….OK, it is an app on my phone)

Been working on something over the past couple weeks in my mind, mostly because that is usually where things start and finish, in my head. I am a terrible procrastinator….or would that make me a good procrastinator. A terrible one would never procrastinate and would act on things and get shit done, right?

Anyway, I started a new web site and since I have 10 minutes to write about whatever I want, I am going to talk about it a little. But then again, why do I need to wait until the daily prompt gives me free time to talk about it?? Am I really that much of a follower? Wow, that’s sad.

No, it’s OK. Everything happens for a reason. Things in my life have been happening for a reason recently and mostly because I try to remove myself from the equation when it comes to letting things happen. Forcing my opinion or my will into situations will usually turn them sour. Learning to live life on life’s terms is what I have been trying to learn over the past 6 months and now it is time to step up my game.

And that is what I am looking to do. I am almost 50 years old and have an opportunity to “start over”. Well, not completely start over because my family is still behind me, but starting over in many other senses.

And that is what I am going to do. I have learned that I love to write. I love to learn. I want to spend the next 50 years (It could happen….maybe) living life, not letting life live me.

Anyway, the timer already is down to a minute, oh damn you prompt people, why couldn’t I have 20 minutes! Wait, I can write more about this on another post? I am not tied down by daily prompt’s parameters? Freedom!!!!

30 seconds left. All kidding aside, the website is http://www.startsat50.com it is a work in progress, you can see my story here

Fastest 10 minutes ever, now moving on….

Peace

Mark


The Good Lump

If money were no object, would I still work.

I have asked myself that many, many times over the years and up until 6 months ago, my answer unequivocally would have been yes, without hesitation.

Ain’t it funny how things change? How lives change? How priorities change?

So asking me this question today my answer would be, no, I would not go back and work for someone else. In the past 6 months I have learned more about myself than I did in the first 49 years of my existence. I have learned that the life I was living was very destructive to both myself and to those around me. I worked to escape from reality. I don’t have to escape from reality any more, I don’t WANT to escape from reality any more.

What would I do with my free time? Well yesterday I wrote about the cause that I am passionate about, if you missed it, HERE is the link. I would spend time helping people that struggled like I did, people that had given up on life, on hope, on being able to love or feel loved. It is what I need to do in order for me to thrive and survive in this world. It is one of my passions now.

I would write, and write, and write. I would read, and read, and read.

But mostly I would be there for the people in my life that truly love me, and that I truly love. My family first and foremost, but also the handful of friends that have proven that they care about me and  want what is best for me and do not expect anything in return other than my friendship, which I am more than happy to give them now that I am learning how to be a friend. I would be there for all of the people that have helped me over the past 6 months in recovery from my addictions and that have freely given of themselves so that I can get better, and all they ask in return is that I be there for someone else that needs help. The lump in my chest is growing as I am typing these words, it is a good lump.

I enjoy the lump. I want the lump to stick around, and I know now that it can and will if I do what I have been taught and apply them to my life on a daily basis. I love my lump. I hope everyone reading finds their inner lump, or has already found it and is feeling it right now. It can be found right below the throat area, right above the bone in your chest.

Anyone else feeling lumpy today?

See Ya

Mark