The Good Lump

If money were no object, would I still work.

I have asked myself that many, many times over the years and up until 6 months ago, my answer unequivocally would have been yes, without hesitation.

Ain’t it funny how things change? How lives change? How priorities change?

So asking me this question today my answer would be, no, I would not go back and work for someone else. In the past 6 months I have learned more about myself than I did in the first 49 years of my existence. I have learned that the life I was living was very destructive to both myself and to those around me. I worked to escape from reality. I don’t have to escape from reality any more, I don’t WANT to escape from reality any more.

What would I do with my free time? Well yesterday I wrote about the cause that I am passionate about, if you missed it, HERE is the link. I would spend time helping people that struggled like I did, people that had given up on life, on hope, on being able to love or feel loved. It is what I need to do in order for me to thrive and survive in this world. It is one of my passions now.

I would write, and write, and write. I would read, and read, and read.

But mostly I would be there for the people in my life that truly love me, and that I truly love. My family first and foremost, but also the handful of friends that have proven that they care about me and  want what is best for me and do not expect anything in return other than my friendship, which I am more than happy to give them now that I am learning how to be a friend. I would be there for all of the people that have helped me over the past 6 months in recovery from my addictions and that have freely given of themselves so that I can get better, and all they ask in return is that I be there for someone else that needs help. The lump in my chest is growing as I am typing these words, it is a good lump.

I enjoy the lump. I want the lump to stick around, and I know now that it can and will if I do what I have been taught and apply them to my life on a daily basis. I love my lump. I hope everyone reading finds their inner lump, or has already found it and is feeling it right now. It can be found right below the throat area, right above the bone in your chest.

Anyone else feeling lumpy today?

See Ya

Mark

About joatmon14

Man in recovery from everything, looking for a little help, inspiration and direction.... Have spent the last 25 years working in big business, getting lost in all the chaos, not feeling like what I did mattered. By no means am I a professional writer nor do I even think I am that good, but it is something I love to do. Getting lost in a world of words, even for just a little while is why I started my blogs. In reality, at the age of 49 I am trying to find my voice. To find my passion. Maybe starting a little late, but better late than never. I write for me, I enjoy reading other's thoughts very much as well and look forward to the day that I can hold an extended, intelligent, meaningful conversation with YOU View all posts by joatmon14

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