Well, what was I expecting? Been gone a while, did I really think that everything would be the same? That life would not have gone on without me?
Who am I to think that I would be missed? No one is irreplaceable, or so they have told me.
It’s only been a few months, surely I was missed. Of course things are going to be left undone and just waiting for me to clean it all up, that is how it has always been in the past.
No one wrote, no one called, not even an e-mail. . . but I am sure that it is because they were so busy covering for me, right? I was so damn important a few months ago, the place couldn’t run without me. Everyone came to me for answers, and I mean everyone, including my bosses.
How could they just keep it going with me gone, was I that insignificant? Was I just fooling myself? What is going on here?
The past few months have not been easy you know, been trying to get my life in order, surely they all can understand that. Surely they would commend me for “doing the right thing” and overcoming all the issues in my way. RIght?
Life is a funny thing, you think you have everything you want and then it is all gone in an instant. It just changes 180 degrees. What do you do? Feel sorry for yourself? Blame others? Run and hide until everything blows over?
Nah, life is too short for that. My past is my past, can’t change it, just learn from it. Take accountability and move on, maybe to bigger and better things. Find some peace and serenity, it is out there just waiting on me. I can see it, I can feel it.
I am asked what is the one thing that I need to do to feel human again. . . . just live life to the fullest.
Be grateful for what you do have, even if it is not much
Thank God every day for the little things in your life, the ones we have taken for granted for too long
Laugh, smile, learn, share, observe, listen, study. . . . learn how to love again. Have Faith that everything is going to be OK, no matter how bad it had gotten.
This is what I need to do to feel human again