There comes a time in every persons life that something comes along that will change their lives for ever, for the better. Most of us do not accept this opportunity. Most either wait for something even better to come along, which it might or might not, or just refuse to grab on to something new, something different. Fear is holding me back, fear of change, fear of failure, fear of success…
I should just say good bye and move on, right? That is what “normal” people would do. So why is it so hard to let go of something that has controlled my entire life. A life of lies, of cheating, of stealing, of hurting those that, for some reason, love me. Am I crazy? Am I the only one that thinks like this?
Can’t put it off any longer, need to let go, need to move on, but maybe I can just keep part of it, hold on to certain ideals or thoughts. Who would know, right? Not like I haven’t lied before about how I feel, I can get away with it again, at least for a while, but then I can just deal with the consequences then….right? HELP ME!
Life comes at us like a bullet, on a daily basis. It is learning how to deal with issues that separates “the men from the boys”. I can’t hide anymore, can’t pretend like everything is OK because it just isn’t. OK, here goes.
Good Bye ME, good bye to my ways, my self-centered, self-serving thoughts, good bye to insanity!.
Hello God……ready to get started!